I saw some children on www.adoptuskids.org that I would love to adopt last night. They are in a different state. I made the inquiry anyway, but I am learning that it can be very hard to be considered if you are not in the same state.
In a way I get it. The system tries to help the kids keep their connections rather than having them experience yet another move and another loss. I have also been told that caseworkers won't even look at your homestudy if you are out of state, and our state adoption specialist seemed to push me away from considering out-of-state adoption too. Still I inquired, because when I saw these kids I felt electricity go through me. Now, maybe I need to use more fabric softener on my blankets to help with static, but I felt something and I had to inquire.
So who knows? I am sure of one thing. If my children are across oceans, continents, mountains, or a teeny tiny state line it does not matter. The Lord will build our family and he will handle the logistics of it all. In my head though I am whispering "Please let the casworker consider us. Please! Please! Please!"
OK! Where is the girl that knows begging doesn't change anything? Where is the girl that KNOWS she does not want her will but rather the Lord's. Well... She'll be back in a minute. I saw some babies last night that made my heart beat so fast I took forever falling asleep. I prayed for them. For whoever their family will be, and yes, I prayed again for my babies to come home.
Until then, maybe I will see a hundred kids that make me excited, that make me pray, that make me surrender... AGAIN. I suppose that's not such a bad thing.
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