Aggravation

Just deleted it all.  I don't want to say it, you don't want to read it.


Sooooo... Things are difficult, I am tired, the house is messy, and my 5 littles are hard.  I think that about sums up my funk right now.

I got a call from the caseworker today.  She told me to come to the team meeting on Friday.  I am going... I guess.  These things are in another county.  I really wish we had an alternative, gas money wise, to the Excursion.... Sigh.  Oh well.

I am supposed to talk about the boys' strengths and about how it negatively affects them when visits are canceled.


 I am aggravated.  I see more negative behaviors when there are visits.  I will come up with something, but  I won't lie.

They seem confused and emotional when they know there is supposed to be a visit and it doesn't happen.  I guess that is it.  The whole truth?  Tot doesn't want to go, but I tell him he has to.  Baby won't eat at visits, and seems less joyful until he's been home for awhile.  Everything is worse with Tyke when there is a visit.  We get eating fits, manipulative behavior, breaking rules for attention, everything.

Now on to other problems.  Me.  I can't convey how I am not good right now.  I wish I could, but I can't stand the whiny nature of it all.   I am nut sure what my problem is right now.  Nothing is worse today.  I just started off praying for strength (because I was tired) and reading the Bible (Because I need supernatural guidance), and even with that beginning it was all hard and grouchiness and tiredness.